Nov 30, 2025

To whoever finds this, It’s strange looking back on who I used to be. I thought I was so bright, so full of spark loud, unique, impossible to overlook. Now it feels like that girl faded somewhere along the way, and I’m left wandering through the outline she left behind.

Every day I feel myself slipping further from the world around me. I smile, I laugh, I talk like everything’s fine… but inside I’m just tired. Not sleepy tired soul tired. The kind of tired that makes you feel like you’re watching your own life from somewhere far away.

I know my friends care. I really do. But I can’t shake the feeling that if I stopped trying if I stopped forcing myself to be funny, interesting, loud I’d disappear from their memory. I hate how much I crave attention, how much I want to matter to someone without having to fight for it.

Maybe that makes me dramatic. Maybe that makes me weak. I don’t know anymore.

What I do know is that I’m reaching the end of whatever strength I had left. I’ve been holding everything together with shaking hands, and they’re starting to let go. I don’t want to scare anyone. I don’t want to blame anyone. I just… needed someone to hear me, even if it’s too late for anyone to answer back.

If this ends up being the last time you see me here, please don’t remember me as the girl who gave up. Remember me as the girl who tried who loved loudly, laughed too hard, and burned bright for as long as she could.

This is my final goodbye.

April 10, 2025

HEYHEYHEY MY FIRST BLOG ENTRYYYYY ( GRAH ) IF YOU ASKED ME HOW AM I FEELIINNGG?? HONESTLYY IM OVERWHELMED MY FRIEND GROUP HATES EACHPOTHER AND IM A MENACE SO I JS LIKE LET TS HAPPEN AND TELL EACH SIDE ABT THE OTHER SIDE IF THAT MAKES SENSE.(JK I DIDNT DONT CANCEL ME IDC SUE ME WHORES. ANYWAYS I HAVE MY FINAL EXAMS SOON LOWK STREESSEDDDDD I HAVENT STUDIED YET ( AWOOP ) WISH ME LUCKK........... SHOULD I STUDYYYYYYYYYY OR NOTTTT

THIS YEAR IS LOWK BORING LAST YEAR WAS SO INTRESTINGGGG LIKE THERE WAS A BUNCH OF DRAMA STAY TUNED TO HEAR IT BITCHESSSSS. LOWK WANNA KMS BUT IN A CUTE WAY YKYKUYKYKKKKK HEAR ME OUR BILL SKARSGARD OR HOWEVER U SPELLL HIS NAME..... HESSSOOOOO FINENNENENENENEN HIM IN PENNY WISE IS JUST OMG EPITOME OF HOTNESSS

UGHHH SO THATS IT FOR MY FRIST BLOG ENTRY I DONT RLY KNOW WHAT TO WRITE HERE BUT I HOPE U HAVE A NICE TIME EXPLORING MY PAGEEE BTW OTHER PAGES WILL COME UP SOOOOONNNN I JUST LOVE THE IDEA OF THIS SO MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHH ALSO CREDITS TO FUCHI FOR INSPIRING THIS LAYOUT LOFE HER OR HIM OR THEY THEM IDFK.